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  For my daughter Eva

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  I owe many people thanks for helping me with advice or information at various stages of writing this novel. I want to mention in particular Claire Gerus, Janusz Glowacki, David Satter, Agatha Dominik, Agnieszka Holland, Susan Szeliga and Robby Lantz. My apologies to those whom I left out for brevity’s sake.

  It is customary to thank agents and editors, but there is nothing routine about the debt of gratitude I owe to Marshall Klein, my agent, and Alice Mayhew, my editor. Marshall’s enthusiasm for this project was infectious when I needed it the most. I, of course, knew about Alice’s legendary reputation as an editor, but I wasn’t prepared for her to easily surpass my expectations, which she did from day one. I also want to thank her associate, Anja Schmidt, who performs the astonishing feat of keeping up with her.

  My editors at Newsweek, especially the late Maynard Parker, made it possible for me to spend several years living and reporting from Germany, which allowed me to embark on the research for this book. Danke.

  And then there’s my family. They lived with my earliest ruminations about the premise for the book, and everyone contributed ideas, suggestions and, most of all, unfailing support. That includes my parents, Marie and Zygmunt; my children, Eva, Sonia, Adam and Alexander; and my wife, Christina. In Berlin and back in New York, Christina—or Krysia, as she is known—was not only my in-house editor and critic but also, as always, the person who made me feel that everything was possible. With her remarkable gifts, it is. Eva took over the job of first reader, first morale booster, first promoter. When we were on opposite sides of the Atlantic, I sometimes felt that her e-mail responses were flashing back even before my latest draft of a chapter could have reached her. I couldn’t have done this book without her constant input, humor and love.

  Preface

  No one would have noticed anything unusual about the young man on the tram that morning in late September. He sat straight in his seat, looking intently out the smudged window, watching for his stop as the tram clattered its way from Vienna’s ring road past the Belvedere Palace and the factories and shops on the city’s outskirts.

  He was wearing rumpled dark pants, a white shirt, a thin tie and a worn poplin jacket. When he took off his hat, there was something about his face—hazel eyes, straight, narrow nose and full lips—that caught the eye of several young women who got on and off during his ride. His chin displayed a day’s worth of still boyish stubble, and his curly brown hair was tousled.

  Not that the young man noticed. When the long, high brick wall of the Central Cemetery came into view, he rose abruptly and asked something of an old woman who was clutching a bunch of fading tulips. He remained standing until the next stop, where he got off, carrying a small bag.

  The young man stood for a moment in front of the imposing gate flanked by two large pillars. As he stepped onto the cemetery grounds, he gazed at the administration building. A breeze stirred the cool morning air, and he drew his light jacket around him. He went inside for a couple of minutes and then quickly made for the cemetery chapel a few hundred yards away.

  A thin, balding priest emerged from the chapel and headed for the main gate. The young man intercepted him, doffed his hat and spoke briefly. The priest pointed to the right of the entrance and continued on his way.

  The young man stood still, then turned in the direction the priest had indicated and walked briskly down a path deeper into the cemetery, passing rows of old graves before reaching an area with several new ones. He stopped in front of one with a freshly carved headstone set on packed earth.

  He dropped to one knee, his head bent. His lips moved. He lowered his other knee to the ground. At the same moment, there was a commotion at the main gate. An important person seemed to be arriving, with a bodyguard on either side. They set off on the same path the young man had traveled.

  He stood up and saw them approaching. They were still far off and hadn’t noticed him. He moved away, placing himself between the fresh and old graves, keeping his head down as he circled around the three men. He crouched behind a large headstone close to the path. His eyes were locked on the men as he reached into the bag he had placed at his feet. He drew out a gun, a Browning, and shoved it under his jacket, keeping a grip on it.

  The focus of his attention—so intense that it seemed almost certain one of the men would feel it—was the least imposing of the trio, leading the way. The man’s short black hair was slicked back and parted on the right side. His eyes radiated unfocused energy from beneath equally dark eyebrows. A bushy, odd mustache appeared to prop up his nose, barely spreading wider than his nostrils. He wore a trench coat fastened off center with a belt that accentuated his modest but unmistakable middle-aged paunch. He, too, appeared lost in his thoughts.

  Particularly when he reached the grave that the young man had just left. As his bodyguards paced, the man stood with his back to them, almost perfectly still. But once or twice his head jerked back and forth, and another time his shoulders twitched as if an electric current had jolted his body.

  The bodyguards tensed as the man finally turned away from the grave. He took a few halting steps and stumbled slightly. One of the burly men rushed up to help, but the man shook him off and issued a command. What happened next was a blur. The bodyguard shot out his right arm in a salute and conferred briefly with his colleague, who ran back toward the main gate. The other one followed at a slower pace, clearing the path ahead of an approaching elderly couple. The man with the mustache trailed at a distance. He drew even with the young man behind the headstone. The young man stepped onto the path to face him, looking as determined as the other looked surprised. He raised the Browning and pointed it at the man’s chest.

  Chapter One

  Why have I been writing it all down, keeping this journal? Tomorrow when I walk out of prison after serving seven of the ten years the Austrians sentenced me to, I’ll take it with me, but I doubt I’ll ever show it to anyone. If someone does eventually read it, it will probably be long after I’m gone. For now my only hope, if you can call it that, is to be left alone, to try to stop my deed from following me for the rest of my life. But even if I succeed, I will always be haunted by my memories of Geli.

  I wrote simply because I had to write. Because during these seven years I could never stop thinking about her, seeing her, dreaming about her, longing for her. I couldn’t stop wondering whether anything could have turned out differently, whether I made some horrible mistake. I don’t know. I do know that even if I had managed to save Geli from him somehow, she probably wouldn’t have wanted to stay with me. In this journal, at least, I have brought her back, and I have her all to myself. Some consolation, but better than none at all.

  I can make a pretty good guess when it all began, when fate or whatever you want to call it began pushing me toward the path I took, toward the chain of events that would eventually lead me here to my small prison cell, where I have all the time in the world to remember and, presumably, reflect. I’ve never been very good at that, at reflection. But I have thought enough about what happened to know that I can’t just start with Geli, with our first meeting. I have to go back further, much further. To November 9, 1918, to be exact.

  I was only fifteen then, but it’s a day that will always remain precisely etched in my memory.

  The rumors that it was all over had been circulating around town for
weeks. The Great War, the war we had all entered so cheerfully, thinking it’d be a short, triumphant adventure, was sputtering to an ignoble end. Four years of bloodshed, four years of death, millions of deaths, and what did we have to show for it? I wasn’t yet ready to concede the obvious: that the answer was nothing. Or worse than nothing, since the war had destroyed more than those lives. It had spawned a sickness of the spirit.

  As I crossed the Tiergarten early in the morning, with wet leaves clinging to my shoes and heavy moist air filling my nostrils, I was envisioning the returning troops marching with their heads held high, proud of their heroism. And I was seeing Gerhard marching with them, his mouth twisted in that odd half grin of his, one side curling up and the other pointing down, seemingly at odds. I had awoken with the feeling—no, the firm conviction—that this would be the day he’d finally come home. I knew he’d be coming. Before setting off, I had taken the roll my mother had given me for breakfast, smeared it with a precious bit of lard, wrapped it in a rag and jammed it into the pocket of my threadbare coat. Gerhard might be hungry.

  We hadn’t heard from my older brother since September, a month after he was called up. But in the confusion of those times, we didn’t necessarily know what that meant. Or didn’t want to know. It wasn’t like my father, whose death had been reported two years earlier. By 1918 you couldn’t count on much news.

  No one knew for sure when the troops would enter the city, but the Tiergarten was already full of people streaming toward the Brandenburg Gate. Some of the women and little girls were carrying makeshift bouquets or a scraggly flower or two, although it was hard to imagine where they managed to get them. Scratching for food supplies had been hard enough. I hadn’t seen milk or cheese for I don’t know how long, and my mother and I had survived on turnips when the official rations of bread and meat—usually more gristle—ran out. The bread they gave us was often made from turnips. I had promised myself that when the war was over, I’d never touch a turnip again.

  I should have waited for my mother that morning, but as so often lately, I hadn’t given any thought to what she must have been feeling. I was angry and disappointed that I had been too young to follow my father and brother to the front; at the same time, I wouldn’t admit how much I missed them both. Even my father, schoolteacher that he was, who had kept me at a distance and regularly scolded me, always making me feel that I failed to live up to his expectations. Every so often, after some transgression, he’d pull out a ruler and make me hold out my hand, just as he did with his pupils. The first time he delivered a stinging whack, my mother had come to the door. She said nothing when I cried out. Tears rolling down my cheeks, I looked beseechingly at her. She only dropped her eyes. At that moment I felt angrier with her than I did with my father. I couldn’t understand why she hadn’t defended me.

  I soon learned to hold back the tears, fixing my face in a stony expression, even when my father dispensed with the ruler and slapped me hard across the face. My mother tried to comfort me afterward, but I turned my back on her.

  When my father was going off to war, he solemnly instructed me on the need to obey Gerhard and my mother, to act more like a young man, but all I could think was that I’d be free of him for a while. When he appeared at home in full uniform, though, I couldn’t believe my eyes. I knew him as a short, pudgy man who sported a handlebar mustache. I tried not to look at the top row of crooked brown teeth and kept as far away as I could from the sour smell of his breath. Now he seemed to stand taller and straighter, his gut no longer very noticeable, his face animated as he talked of certain victory. For the first time in my life, the thought crossed my mind that he was handsome. On the day we learned he had died in the first German assault on Verdun, I was torn by guilt and anger. Had I wished him dead? Was it my fault? Did he get himself killed just to punish me again?

  It was then that I began frightening my mother by disappearing after school or skipping school altogether, taking off alone or with other boys from my class who had the same idea. She would come back from cleaning rich people’s apartments in Charlottenburg and wait nervously for me to show up. Sometimes I’d return with a bit of stolen food as a peace offering, but that would alarm her more: “What’s becoming of you?”

  I told her about all the black-marketeers and rich folks who weren’t suffering at all. Why, I demanded, should regular people be the only ones to suffer?

  “If only your father were still alive, he’d straighten you out.”

  “You’d like that, wouldn’t you? You’d like to watch him beat me.”

  “No.”

  “Yes, you would,” I shouted. “You never stopped him.”

  Her voice dropped to a whisper. “You don’t understand.”

  “Yes, I do.”

  “There was nothing I could do. Your father was a good man, but . . .”

  “But what?”

  She slumped down in her chair. “I won’t, I can’t.” Her voice faltered. “He’s dead, after all.”

  I briefly felt sorry for her but didn’t show it. I kept that stony look I had perfected.

  Today was different. Today Gerhard was coming home, and I was rushing to greet him. The sky was slate gray, and most people were wrapped up against the frequent gusts, but I was sweating as I ran through the Tiergarten. Approaching the Brandenburg Gate, I knew something was wrong even before I saw the soldiers marching through and then down Unter den Linden. No one was cheering, I realized, and instead of the sound of boots proudly pounding the road in unison, I could hear only a muffled shuffling.

  I pushed my way forward. There wasn’t a triumphant soldier to be seen, only exhausted men in torn, filthy uniforms, defeat written on their faces. When girls offered them flowers, they could barely summon the strength to thank them, much less smile. Their eyes had a hollowed-out look. As I cooled down, a shiver went through my body, and I felt hungry. I took out the roll and started nibbling on it, then pulled it away, horrified at what I had done. I had to keep it for Gerhard.

  The soldiers’ ranks began thinning out, with no sign of Gerhard. I shouted at the hunched figures: “Have you seen Private Gerhard Naumann?” They ignored me or just looked blank. One soldier patted me on the head. “Sorry.”

  I stood paralyzed for a moment and then raced after him, tugging on his sleeve. “You know him? You know what happened to him?” The soldier shook his head, without looking back. I latched on to his arm and tugged as hard as I could, refusing to let go. “Tell me.”

  With one swift motion, he sent me reeling, knocking me over on my side. I lay still for a moment, then jerked myself upright, realizing that my coat pocket with the roll was under me. Still in a sitting position, I cautiously reached in and pulled it out. It was a pathetic sight, partly eaten, partly squashed. I threw it into the bushes. I stood up shakily and, changing my mind, tried to retrieve it, growing more and more frantic when I couldn’t find it. Pushing the bushes apart, I saw it on the ground, reached for it and stuffed it into my mouth, not pausing to wipe off the dirt that worked itself in between my teeth. Gerhard wasn’t coming today, I told myself. I’ll get a fresh one later. I tried to spit out the dirt. The aftertaste was all the more disgusting because I hated what I had done.

  I was standing almost directly in front of the Adlon Hotel on the other side of the Brandenburg Gate, simultaneously angry and numb. Although I was now resigned to disappointment, I watched the stragglers until the last of them limped by. Just then I saw among the peasant women selling firewood and turnips an elegantly dressed older man in a top hat and morning coat, clutching a large wreath of wildflowers. The wreath fascinated me—where could he have gotten so many flowers? I hadn’t seen a wreath like that since before the war. And even then only once, when my father had proudly taken me to a ceremony commemorating German unification.

  A younger man approached the wreath bearer and took him gently by the arm, leading him to the hotel entrance. “That’s Lorenz Adlon,” a policeman sneered, and for the first time I realized t
hat the hotel was named after a person, its owner. “He was waiting to congratulate the kaiser on his great victory. He didn’t know he’s abdicated and hightailed it out of here.”

  “Rich people.” Another man laughed. “They’ll see what’s coming to them.”

  —

  A couple of weeks later, I came home to find my mother sitting on a stool in the kitchen, her face pale and her eyes red from crying.

  I stood in the doorway.

  “Yes, it’s Gerhard. They say he died in the first battle of his unit.” Her voice trailed off, but she summoned the strength to raise her arms to embrace me. I turned around and darted out of the apartment.

  I kept running for a long time. I dropped out of school, roaming the streets and picking fights, often not returning home for several days at a stretch, sleeping in stairwells or semiabandoned buildings. I was hardly alone in deciding there wasn’t any sense in obeying the rules anymore, in listening to anyone in authority. Berlin in defeat made the chaos of the war years look like a simpler, almost orderly time. Now there weren’t just protests and starvation but armed revolts. Snipers perched on rooftops and shot people at random.

  In the cafés and restaurants on Potsdamer Platz and in other fashionable quarters, life went on as usual, with most people seemingly oblivious to the anarchy all around them. At night, the cabarets, bars and whorehouses were in full swing. I remember the first time it began to dawn on me that the women and girls, many of them younger than I, were available for a few marks. I found myself gaping at a scraggly redhead, dressed incongruously in a dirndl that made a sumptuous display of her small breasts.

  “Something the matter?” she asked, abruptly turning to meet my gaze. “Never seen a girl before?”

  I felt my face flush. “No—I mean, yes, I have.”